Remember a few days ago I was talking about how I’m not using all the extra energy I’ve finally gained back?
…well, it’s an ongoing process, this pacing thing, and I’m using too much of the extra energy. Certainly not all of it, but. It’s really hard, when you’re not feeling completely comatose, to be completely comatose anyway. It’s frustrating, and you want to do more, but you know you need to keep that energy, so you do a little more but that turns out to be too much. Which is doubly frustrating, because you were so sure you were going to keep improving from here. But the hard work has barely started, so you have to knuckle down again and not get ahead of yourself.
I have a habit of getting ahead of myself. The trick is to develop the corresponding habit of catching that and reversing it.
I tell you what, having CFS really does keep your personal development on the surface.